Welcome to Finding Flow

I'm so glad you're here.

Finding Flow is a collection of monthly reflections inspired by my own journey, the conversations I have with clients, and the incredible wisdom of the nervous system.

As a CT Technologist and Spinal Flow Practitioner, I spend my days helping people understand the body. But I've realized that some of my greatest lessons have come from learning to slow down myself.

These aren't perfect answers.

They're honest reflections.

My hope is that each month you'll leave with a little more understanding, a little more hope, and perhaps permission to be a little kinder to yourself.

Welcome.

— Stephanie

Finding Flow | July

Productivity Became My Identity

I came across a quote that I haven't been able to stop thinking about.

"Productivity becomes identity."

It made me uncomfortable because I saw myself in it.

For years, I believed I was doing my best when I was doing everything.

Working at the hospital.
Growing Flow Into Wellness.
Thinking about clients.
Taking care of our home.
Loving on our pets.
Planning projects.
Making lists...
...and making more lists.

My brain became really good at carrying everything.

But somewhere along the way, I stopped asking whether carrying everything was actually healthy.

I've started noticing something.

When I don't finish my list, I don't just think...

"I'll get to it tomorrow."

Instead, my mind quietly whispers...

"You didn't do enough today."

That's a heavy thing to carry.

And if I'm honest, I think a lot of us are carrying it.

As I've learned more about the nervous system through Spinal Flow—and through my own life—I've realized that constant multitasking doesn't always make us more productive.

Sometimes it simply keeps the body in a state of constant readiness.

Always scanning.
Always planning.
Always anticipating what's next.

No wonder so many of us struggle to relax.

Lately, I've been practicing something simple.

One task.

One conversation.

One moment.

Then the next.

It's amazing how different my day feels when I stop asking my brain to be everywhere at once.

I'm still learning.

Maybe that's what healing really is.

Not becoming someone completely different...

but gently returning to someone who doesn't believe their worth is measured by how much they accomplished today.

If you needed permission to slow down this week...

this is it.

Until next month...

Be gentle with your nervous system.

It has been carrying you longer than you realize.

This month I'm practicing closing one mental tab before opening another. 

A Reflection to Carry with You: A question to sit with this month...

What would change if your worth wasn't measured by everything you accomplished today?